Lost a game... A warrior failed in his terms

Today, It was an unlucky day for me...
I lost shuttle(badminton) match @ finals (it went more than 8 rounds) organized by my company.
I ended up as RUNNER... other word for a loser who goes up-to finals n makes sure he loses..

I learnt later from the opponent that we were scared mutually on each other. I was making him run like hell.. !!!.. what a pity.. I should have known this at right time..
I made 6 unforced errors at the finals which couldnt be compromised later..
today I played really a worst game of my life today that too in finals...
I dint realize that I too had fears and was little worried at the end. So many things came across my mind, my past, present etc., which was totally unrelated at the place I where I was dreaming..

I dont know where to dissipate my anger or I dont know whether its the frustration or the anger exactly I m feeling now.

I guess I'll lose one more sweet thing also in my life today...