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Romeo was driving his bike. Trust me he is one hell of a crazy rider and he calls himself the fastest rider in the city. haha. I was thinking with his 106cc bike what can he do about fast riding!. But the point he said was valid even thought with 500 cc you can only drive only below 60kmph on average inner circle of any city. But this guy goes upto 80kmph.. now thats crazy.

Romeo was blah blah ing abt his driving skills in high traffic periods for next few minutes actually looked like hours to me. I can cut like this, that... how he saved his ass in nearly many death meeting situations. Then at one point he said he can beat Valentino Rosie (, the race bike champ for newbies). I nearly fainted hearing that....
I suggested Romeo the right career job for him then..he sharpened his ears in order listen...

Guess what...

Its Pizza delivery boy.... hahaha .. the right job for the skilled person..haha..

Lost my freedom

It seems although we are living in a free, democratic country, we dont have enough freedom of expression. Ofcourse, it was not meant to hurt anyone though.

Now, Romeo lost the breadth of his feelings, cant even breath louder. Wont know what to openup or what should he speak...
Man... this should be better than piercing him with 1000 spears at a time...

Romeo wants to throw away everything and run from everyone. I, personally am a good friend of him but sometimes I hate him for these cowardly thoughts. Sometimes I dont care what he feels... he is so silly, stupid, aimless & careless.. he has to pay for his deeds. We cant giveup on friends, right?

Review - Chetan Bhagat's - 2 States -Story of my marriage.....

Just today (14th dec 09) morning I finished reading Chetan Bhagat's - 2 States -Story of my marriage.....

The author packed all the ingredients of being IIT & IIMA passed outs @ the beginning. With proper and simple usage of the words suitable for common/vocational readers, an effective style followed by the best sellers. Later comes the important part, the Romance between the main characters. It just happens as in the movies & in a few real life scenarios too. According to me, the romance part was short. I think he wanted to focus on mutual family convincing part much more.

The Author has slammed the flaws of totally two different cultures. First, as punjabi boy he slams all the lavishing, self boasting of wealth and family gossips and the biased idea of them about south Indians.Then the family gathering drink & dance filled with fun comes as a backup.
I feel he slammed more on Tamilians (or Madarasis as north indians call them) and their moral policing than punjabis. I guess may be because I was born and brought up in same place which he calls as Language chauvinistic community. Yes, the Author is right about everything he discussed about both the states. I too feel that the non-fun mania is in the blood of Tamilians as a predominant way of living their lives. His personal experience is spilled all over the book. I felt like little boring at the moments where he used fillers, unrelated to the main story. It may be entertaining for few, though.

The boy convincing girl's family was little rational but the girl doing the same at punjabi family's marriage was unbelievable though it is possible. However, the story ends with a dramatic twist which we can expect so easily with this father character & the ashram visit. Author left dots for us to connect later which is obvious for a regular reader.

I want to...

I want to hug uu..
i want to kiss uu..
i want to pamper uu..
i want to surprise uu..
i want to enjoy life with u..
i want to make u happy..

hey ..in other words
i simply want to live with u..
is that a crime...?

... Oh,Dear.. I am really clueless abt u..

Dont know I was really in mood from past month to write poems.. I posted all the composed poems in on shot as I dint have internet connection for some time now.

Is it the Love, I feel for you

Is it the beautiful smile
that you have which stormed me..

Is it the gorgeous eyes
that stole my heart..

Is it the caring heart of yours
that took my breadth..

Is it the way you walk
that occupied my neurons..

Is it the funny moments
that we shared wavered me in clouds..

Is it the attractive personality of yours
that gave me unseen dreams..


My crazy mind does know that
time stands still for none
I fear the 'none',
a vacuum to be filled between us

Now, when the time has come to depart you
while I am trying to figure out
why cant I hate you
I am still falling in love with you again
and again..
that's one hell of a crazy clueless mind that owns me..


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Tamil poem...

kalaigalileye aval ovium
enndru maga kavinjan kurinaan...

unnai varaindha peragu dhan
yen oviyathirke uyir vandhadhu
endru avanuku eppadi teriyum...

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As per few non-Tamil reader's request I have given English explanation for the above Tamil poem...
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there is an old poem by a great poet lived 50 years back, Kavinjar kannadasan..
He describes abt best of best in all objects for describing the features of a girl.. and it goes like this...

The girl is a painting: among arts, painting is considered as best expression of art..
she is spring: among seasons, spring is considered ecstatic season to all..
she is lilly: among flowers, lilly is most liked by Tamil girls bcoz of its smell n auspiciousness

like tat...etcs..,,

My 1st line is abt the poet.. .. as i m an artist too.. i hav drawn a pic of that girl.. and I am differing against the poet's metaphor about best of everything..
He dint have chance to witness her beauty so he dint include her as a comparing standard with other best things...
its like beating a greatest poetic thought ..I meant she is so good than what his metaphoric words describe...

Great Day

I volunteered a NGO work yesterday. I really had a great day.
We visited under privileged children homes and mentally unstable and other physical and emotional unbalanced people.

I was satisfied that I spent a day totally worthy, atlast. All my friends circle are alike

Lost a game... A warrior failed in his terms

Today, It was an unlucky day for me...
I lost shuttle(badminton) match @ finals (it went more than 8 rounds) organized by my company.
I ended up as RUNNER... other word for a loser who goes up-to finals n makes sure he loses..

I learnt later from the opponent that we were scared mutually on each other. I was making him run like hell.. !!!.. what a pity.. I should have known this at right time..
I made 6 unforced errors at the finals which couldnt be compromised later..
today I played really a worst game of my life today that too in finals...
I dint realize that I too had fears and was little worried at the end. So many things came across my mind, my past, present etc., which was totally unrelated at the place I where I was dreaming..

I dont know where to dissipate my anger or I dont know whether its the frustration or the anger exactly I m feeling now.

I guess I'll lose one more sweet thing also in my life today...

There is something that i want to tell you...

There is something that i want to tell you...
But it is hard for me to tell you
while I am lost
while I am searching
for that one
living light
that I am looking for
the more I run after it,
it runs away...

The wound in my heart, bleeds
I cannot sustain the pain anymore
Please come back to me...


The future is
not calm

Again n again
u come in my dreams...

we r dancin on a bridge
we r holding on to
Tears n joy
even in the darkest of the nights
tommorrow will always come...

A Girl's Heart - from my friend

Every single girl has a dream about her after wedding life.

But when the time comes she is kind of scared to face it because she doesn't want 2 be disappointed .

Scared because of new environment, new people ,and everything else that is going to become a part of her new life.

The transition period from being a daughter to daughter - in -law is quite interesting............

from being pampered so much @ home to, pamper someone else...taking on the responsibilities ....


As an individual there will be more roles to play ..... more of a promotion from being a daughter to becoming a wife.
A new bondage with wishes from so many people ....

Apart from all these wonderful things, what do matter the most is the prince she has been waiting for....

that's what matters....... @ the end of the day

All the sacrifices what she has done is for that one person whom she has been dreaming of all her life.


fights do come ------ without it life will b very boring... but its how both overcome it...... trying to explore one self with the help of another

So what she expects is nothing but 2 be happy and sees to that her prince is also happy.

MY REVIEW -------------------------------------------------------------
This is what is so special about a woman. God has created to balance from the other creation(man) which lacks so many things.
She has taken many avatars like wife, mom, job, house keeper, prep stuffs for a family, a total maintainance of a home, keeping track of everything.

Woman is such a wonderful creation of all, she who possess a mental strength more than tons of steel, who is robust in nature, she will hold a family even when it means to sacrifice everything she has now, a martyr - this is a strong word to describe. But its true and cannot be donned by a man....

hey hey.... wait.. is there any relation between the above article and my review...
hmm.. i leave that to the readers..

A warrior’s fear…

In early times Romeo had to prove everyone (critics, discriminators) wrong… man.. that was easy for him. Now the time has come where he had to prove everyone right… that’s really tougher than previous one.

The hungry Beast lying within Romeo has an unquenchable thirst for success. And it is so much trained to show his talents, the greater part in proving others wrong. To put it other way he has no idea on the other side, the real scary part of life.

Romeo always imagined himself as a fearless warrior of medieval times. Comparing the challenges a warrior could have faced with the contemporary scenarios and the survival chances in battle fields are to be taken as present world problems. The thirst for victory was always present with humans which kept him going.

Romeo was an average child in his childhood. He was fascinated by history, kings and great stories that told the braveness of the extinct generations. It is in his blood may be because his mom was a history teacher. Every story told him that they might not think about winning but they never liked to lose any war. So be it. Romeo doesn’t know how to win but certainly he never wanted to lose.

In Loving memory of my father - II

Romeo always argued with his dad for being more inclined towards his eldest sister. Sometimes it irritated him. She was special to him until last few years of his life. Romeo won over her at last, alas an unclaimed victory. Romeo came to know about his dad’s love towards him through his sisters. Dad would call them and told stories about my achievement. Never once he recognized in front of Romeo.

Once dad attended my college day function while returning home his hands were full with the prizes I won in different events. He couldn’t even carry them properly. I saw a satisfying happiness through his eyes. He thought me to ride the bikes. We planned on many occasions for swimming but it dint happen. Not to mention how strict he was when I was at my teenage. He used to beat me in several occasions. Every passed time had a meaning in itself. Time tells and justifies all the stories happened in our life time.

Whenever I would express my views, dreams he would quietly listen and ask me what I have done so far for that and what the use of it. Say for example I would tell him this is the price of a race bike or Harley Davidson which I will own one day he would in return ask me what will I do after owning it? These are few questions he has thrown at me with great thought which provoked me to think better every time. The questions would either shrink your thoughts or it will provoke you in a new way. I choose later. I choose to be unique in my style because of the fear of my dad’s mockery. I would be amazed when he comments/reviews on my success. He would easily compare my ideas with the existing one as that of a top level management professional. On my failures he would ask how the winner came up with flying colors and what was I lacking? With his ordinary government office experience he will smash your way of thinking in seconds. I don’t know whether every dad has the same way of giving lessons to their kids but I will pass it to my next generation. Hoping they might also choose the later on like me.

Time tells us different stories, makes us meet different people. We bump with lot of unexpected things, people, ideas, and places in our life. Some end up happily & some in tragic moments. The reason for every moment passed is secretly told to us by time. Like the wise saying "Nothing is permanent along with success and failures"

Don't know why Romeo likes to fail sometimes, purposely. He wants to taste the success more at the end of failures. But is it worth trying that. I guess he still doesn't figure it yet. Of course he is just a human being after all. He couldn't control everything under his arms. Similar to holding a flower, a balanced strength not to crush or drop it at the same time, the life bends like that when you try to hold it all by yourself. Nature wins at the end establishing its superior power over humans. Romeo is a warrior under the sun fighting for his existence in earth for recognition and pride. He will die gracefully instead of giving up.

Romeo doesn't have clear idea on existence of GOD even after brief reading of Bagavat Gita or the Holy Bible or gists of Quaran or Buddism. Listening & reading to so many great saints, philosophers, and literary works made him think "The Concept" of GOD as a very simple energy surrounding us. He never concluded the idea. Romeo guesses that even from the beginning of human race started there was no possible conclusion ever made.

So what is running us? Why do we exist? These thoughts came up on many instances. But Romeo is not up to the mark. He is just a kid in this wild world. He will learn the law of nature on the way. He wants to take life as it comes. Don't know where he will end up but for the time being let us assume that everything happens for a reason.

In Loving Memory of my Father - I

My father was my secret mentor. He never openly appreciated any of my achievements which forced me to put more effort to impress him all the time. Less, he showed his love towards me more I wanted it.

Flipping back my childhood days, once i nearly ran away from home. My dad found me on the road and took me back and showed all the anger on my mom. That was the day I realized his secret affection towards me.
I used to take his advice on traveling as he was a skilled navigator will get us the shortest path even for the new places. I learnt how to respect & treat friends from the way he handled.

One day I returned from home with scratches and blood clots all over my body. On inquiring I told my dad that I was beaten up by bunch of school bullies. He didn't say anything then. Later he joined me in a local gym, the most important day in my life where I learnt most valuable lessons of life about health and staying fitness.
Again he never approved whatever my biceps size are or weights I lift, the reason which pushed me beyond my limits to make him appreciate. But I came to know it indirectly when he asks whenever I miss exercises.

Whenever I get 1st marks he used take me to movies.That was untold agreement between us. We even acted as college guys when buying tickets for 1st day show. It was different phase after my 10 th results were out.I scored 90% which made my dad happier than my sister who got 92% with state ranks. From that day he was a changed man towards me. I should say I earned the respect I was yearning for a very long time. We had heated arguments, fights etc., on many occasions

Dad fell ill during last few years of his life. He should be expecting me to take a great of care of his only possession, my mom.

Fear less the Fear

                 One of Romeo's colleague was holding her head and was complaining about the stressful life she was undergoing. Scratching her head with a confused face she told that she was suffering a highly painful headache. Even in her dreams codes were running like hell so she couldn't sleep peacefully for past few days. The reply was both simple and complicated. Of course as a listener it looked simple to romeo and complicated from her point of view.

She was struggling with her hectic work schedule, meeting deadlines and keeping up the expectations (its called 'performance' from management point of view). Romeo suggested her to go and have a tea or something with friends and get refreshed. After half a day she was still in the same state.

Romeo asked her what would be the worst case scenario if she couldn't cope up with the schedule. The reply was low performance rating, appraisal may be stamped as inadequacy in skills and blah, blah. Man, she was really worried & also scared romeo with her thoughts.
Romeo told her nothing was gonna change her life at max some set backs in salary than peers. Even after the worst case she could live a fresh life. So

he asked her to imagine the worst possible incidents passing her right then so that there wont be any fear left to encounter. Mind gets free after bumping up with the worst possible perilous situation. He asked her that cant she get another job even if fired with low ratings. Now comparing the present situation it wont be as precarious than the one imagined. Nothing was left to be scared of

so do the best as you would always do. Now, she felt her mind aloft from the boxed fears and relaxed. At he End of day she said " Yes, you are right. Thank You, Romeo." He felt happy too...

Whispering Eyes

My mom always wanted me beside her on my Birth day and temple visit is a must wherever I am. So as annual routine we went to famous temple 2 kms away from home.

You can feel at times if someone is staring at you suddenly we turn towards them. My eyes landed on a girl sitting at one corner inside temple premises. Quickly, my brain was scanning at background. Taking a note of her posture she was sitting, her eyes, dress, structure (of course like all normal men.. that too I am an artist what do you expect from me), coconut and flowers at her hand etc., Conclusion s were made in fraction of nanosecond and she was sitting for a long time then, seemed waiting for someone (now I don’t want to hear that), her eyes were pretty, on a whole she was good looking.

We were standing in the queue to worship. I happened to look her again only for this time she was looking me in a fixed state. Our eyes met for few seconds. I was rethinking about her as she was sitting in a place where once in a while everyone has to pass her. If she was waiting for someone why should she sit there? My mind was trying to convince itself. We glanced at each other many times in short time. Again my reasoning was telling me she was pretty in her early 20s and why should I expect her to be single so far. By this time she was also noticing at my parents.

This look n stare thing was going on until a handsome guy came behind and joined her. She looked happy to see him and her eyes grow misty. Oh god, they are certainly lovers. I felt partially happy as my brain’s conclusions were right, rest I leave it to readers how I felt. Ha ha

---------- Whispering Eyes ----------

DEV. D - a real treat for Contemporay classic

This is a late review about the movie, DEV.D though I watched it on 2nd day from its release date. I don't find any cons in the movie but I happened to notice many people leave at the interval or before the movie ended. Interpretation will differ from people to people and may be they felt embarrassed watching with family. They were smaller part of the audience and many seemed to enjoy with joyous and surprising comments at every turn.

When I got out of theater, I felt like sedated. DEV.D is filled with liquor scenes and we can smell the taste of it on every reel so are the gals who are intoxicating. It set new trend by discussing sex so blatantly. The "F"-word and "Slut" are spilled all over the film. After watching so many movies we can easily expect the forth coming scenes. DEV.D stands out there as a unique, unforeseen, impressive, spectacular and matchless surpassing entire film industry.

The movie poster says like "Contemporary classic" – a true statement. I wish to watch it again that's what I said to my friend after coming out of the movie hall. The theatre manager/owner is my friend's father so I know all of them working at the hall as I am a regular. He seemed to get negative replies from others and got surprised when I said this is the excellent movie I watched so far. Even after showing unconditional love towards dev, paro gets ditched, the unfortunate moment where we will feel sad as if it hurt you. Your heart would crave to tell the truth to Dev about paro.. but goes in vain. The meaning for contemporary lies in showing paro's sexual desires where she is ready to do anything like taking nude pics for love, showing affection towards dev even after her marriage observing his condition, MMS scandals on chanda, chanda's part time studies or sex working(I think both are part time), Atlast Dev realizes he is a slut as enlighten by chanda that he never loved paro.. etc., we can go on praising at every scene.. Modern day devdas fits the bill perfectly. kudos to Anurag Kashyap and Abhay Deol who dared to take such a movie in India.

So overall I give a standing ovation and suggest people who are willing to explore new phase of love or movie definitely watch DEV.D …

EGO vs EGO:

“Ego” is defined as character or opinion of yourself. But the word “Egoist” is described as negative.

Ego of oneself is the reason for one’s success or failure. My ego gained me lots of successes at definite levels. It is the cause for my failures too. The good thing in either of them is acquiring useful knowledge and experience.

Boosting ego is necessary at times to reap your rewards. When the ego is alive we will possess a win-all attitude which is of course a mandatory. The “Win-Win“ mind-set is explained in many motivation books that indirectly puts in picture how to boost one’s ego.

Ego heightening draws to Egoist state of mind. The society condemns egoist approach so the guilty of owning it should go through all the accusations and criticization. Once the ego is vanished the motivation drops down. Ego is directly proportional to impulse or inspiration. Without stimulation one cannot compete or simply can do nothing.

The best way is to let clash the inner ego & outer ego. Inner ego is possessed from within the heart ; what it really wants. The outer one is alive for others to impress, stir around, astonish or strike for sake of doing it. The driving force should come from the result of ego vs ego which will be very stable and exists as long as the need is around or absent.

The Pleasure of pain: Unlimited

The Pleasure of pain: Unlimited
Whenever you do some amount of physical exercise, when you demand the maximum from your body, the mind gains a strange spiritual strength. Understanding the beauty of pain is also a vital part of life. The fear of pain disappears when we cross beyond the limits. In this case, it is the physical limits of a man.

The truth is, no one wants to suffer, and yet nearly everyone seeks out pain and sacrifice, and then they feel justified, pure, deserving of the respect of their children, husbands, neighbors, God. Martyr, is the name given to them. I think “sufferer for a cause” exists as long as mankind exists. May be they all want to experience the calmness beyond all? I don’t know how to name it... May be it is a kind of spiritual drug.

After we pass the worst fears in our life we feel no pain at all. The one who is not afraid of pain fears nothing. Romeo wants to take risks and try things far from his limits. He has been through this phase of pain, personally. He has yet to explore and learn more on it.